Shalom stories

Someone once said that if you want to know if a girl is really hurt, she is going to be silent and will outright ignore you. She will stop asking questions and will just leave you alone. You are not necessarily dead to her, though in some cases, you may be, but she will no longer make an effort to reach out to you.

Have you noticed those billboards that have questions like, “Is your life where you want it to be? Have you accomplished what you thought you would bring about or wished to have obtained by this time, this year?” I had these questions today, and I carried out that no, my life is not where I want it to be. No, I have not achieved what I wanted to have achieved by this point this year. I mean, I am still struggling with things I was meant to do in January, so I think asking me about achieving my January to October plans is pushing it... just saying. Do I get frustrated at times when things do not go my way? Yes, 100% Do I feel pressured by everyone’s expectations of me? You have no idea. I just smile, but in my head I am screaming, “Leave me alone.” I never thought I would see the day when suddenly almost everyone would be interested in finding out when I would get married and to whom. I meet my parents’ friends and most of them are like, “yes, call us now, we are ready.” Some touch my a...

I have a God who is not only enthroned on High, but in His own special way, also comes all the way down to my level to speak to me in a way that I can understand and know it’s Him. He does not mind getting his hands dirty as he sorts me and my issues out. He is the only one I know who remains faithful even when I am unfaithful, and that’s why I can only boast of His love for me and not mine for Him, because mine is flawed. He is also the only one I know who allows me to go through seasons of being "hurt", but he never allows these seasons to "hurt" (damage) me. Instead, they help to shape my character, which makes me understand in a deeper way that faithfulness is more than the kisses of an enemy.

I woke up this morning with a desperate desire for God's will to reign in my life. I was in that place where i was trying to make head or at least tail of the things happening in my life and trying to understand the reason why there is so much drama happening and specifically why some promises are taking so long...and then i received this from a friend.  "For I am working in the secret things in your heart, in your mind, and in your circumstances, to bring about greater awareness of my plans for you. For you are so easily distracted by the here and now, by the things that are temporary, by the things that are unimportant. And so, these things that grab your attention, and hold it, are what you see, and these things are not important, they are not truly relevant. So the things I’m working on are out of your sight, out of your vision, beyond your awareness, but nevertheless, they are important, they are relevant, they are necessary. I am working in these areas, in these issues,...

I have not always been the “follow your destiny” or “chase purpose instead of money” kind of girl. Phrases like pursue purpose did not mean much to me until recently. I went out for lunch with a really good friend of mine and I got a clear perspective on what that really meant. You see, he is the kind of person who asks you question that keep you up late at night. He is the kind of person who is real and tells it to you like it is. What amazes me most about him is the fact that I have not encountered any trace of vagueness in him; he makes his intentions clear about what it is that he wants in life and out of everyone he meet up.

I am that girl who still believes that it is possible to love someone honestly. I still believe in marriage in light of the fact that this is one institution that has been misrepresented, tainted, and defiled by many. It is tempting and really easy to give up on all that, especially when you get to see the statistics that show the number of divorces that happen and those that are likely to take over (place).  What makes it worse is when as an individual you have had your own share of failed relationships and, to be honest, this has the power to just put you in a bad place emotionally and psychologically. It possible to find a lover of your flesh. That person who holds you when you want to be held and who agrees with you sensually.

The wish I've come to discover about God's promises is that they never flow with their surroundings (truth be told before I did not see anything beautiful about it). He can promise provision just to guide you into a season of scarcity. He can guarantee you that things will work out between you and the one you love, but you feel like you're losing them on the inside.